Leave

When people walk away from you, let them go. Your destiny is not tied to anyone who leaves you. It doesn't mean that they are bad people, it just mean that they are never a part of your story. So thank you for leaving.

Said is easier than done. Still never fail to have a constant fear of people leaving without a reason.

Will you leave me like how everyone else did?

I do all the shits for other people and then I wake up, I'm all empty. I always get myself in this kind of fucking situations.

Strength

So I've decided to do two posts instead of one because some little duck complained. 

Most of you do know about my new ink but so for those who doesn't, here's a lil preview. 

A wolf tattoo has different meanings but in my case, it represent "Strength". 

Strength doesn't come from doing what you can do, it begins from overcoming the thing you once thought you couldn't. You'll never know how strong you are until being strong is your only choice. Everything you do in life is a choice. Fear no mistakes, be strong and pick yourself up from your fall. 

Gemini's love their freedom.

Move on

Pity is cruel, Pity destroys.

Majority of the people will say, "I don't want you to stay with me just because you feel bad for me. I don't need your pity. Stay with me because you want to." You are one of the minority.
Well, this is my suggestion. You can spent minutes, hours, months or even years to over analyse situations or you can choose to simply pick yourself up and move the fuck on. Growth is painful, change is painful, but nothing is as painful as staying stuck in some where you don't belong.

Some random segue, I'll never understand people who actually thought about ending their life just due to reasons. Don't you find yourself super self centred? Have you even spared a thought about those people who really care?

Don't need y'all

I remember when it used to be simple, Cause I don't want none of that fake love.


So things has gotten better and I felt more like myself again. It's a relieve that you and I are back. Feeling a lil excited to get my tatts done, I can't wait. I can finally get to do things without anyone consent and this is one of the many advantages of being single.

Sometimes, people claim to have a certain interest in whomever they are talking to. These shit-ass 'interest' tend to go away within a blink of an eye, leaving the other party hanging. Which is a pretty shitty thing to do. I have personally experienced quite a number, anyone else? I do enjoy lying on my bed and listening to electronic dance music at the same time. It kinda soothes my mood gradually. This method helps me get through my shitty moments. 


I don't need y'all anyway.

Surface

I'm getting lesser and lesser sleep as days pass. It's unbelievable.
On the actual day of the confrontation, I kept all my actual feelings to myself. I sugar coat all my words so as to not hurt you. I rather get your attitude than saying what I actually feel so as to not hurt you more.

On the surface, it seems like I'm the one at fault. Only the people, that I've actually voice out my opinion to, actually thinks that my points are more legit. It's true that everything will no longer be the same. But you gotta admit that no matter what decision I've made, you will no longer see me the same way again.

There's nothing I can do about it. 

Better?

As I scroll through my contact list, I have came to a realization that I have just lost someone that will be there to hear me out. So, I'm actually facing a grave problem right now, who is there for me?
I have no idea what has gotten into me.

I took the extra mile to land myself into deeper shit. 
The difference in our mentality worsen the whole situation. I had to pick a side, I'll pick you. But if picking you causes both of us to be so hurt then everything just boils down to this question, "Have I actually done the right thing?" I'm at fault for liking someone in the grey zone, but you can't control stuff like this can you?

Do I feel better after voicing it out? No.

Mistake

It's a terrible mistake causing shit to go bad. I have no idea if you are just placing a strong front or you are genuinely alright.

The worse thing of all: I am always falling for the wrong guys. 

I felt really guilty for doing this, however there'e something I need to tell you. I can't seem to keep this lil secret, neither can I lie to you. Even though it will make me seem more like a terrible friend but I would rather come clean to you.

I'm not perfect; I make mistakes; I hurt people.

So the question is, " Are ex-boyfriends really off limits to friends?"

Reverse

Everything happens for a reason, how  I wish I knew what the reason was.
Sincerely thank the people who have been there for me during this period of my life. Words here and there managed to enlighten me.

"Find a man, not a boy."
"Fuck the guys who did this to us, this is what you thought me."
"I know you are just faking it I'm here for you and I'll never get bored of your rants."
"Ignore him."

If we were written in reverse, and the end was our beginning, the pain will turn to healing.

In all serious note, I'm feeling much better already.

Discarded

Never have I felt so alone. It's this weird awkward feeling where by you are overwhelmed with an amalgamation of emotions.  A mixture of sorrow, emptiness, anger and confusion. It should be a crime to leave someone without a word or an explanation.

How can someone walk into your life for one moment and left you hanging the next?

Apparently, "The Office" have managed to distract me for a lil while through its comedy, however it doesn't last long. I often find myself laughing for a while and feeling all pathetic the next. 

Enough is enough, I need to make this stop