14 Nov 2021

I'm getting married to this man I've been boasting about since 8th December 2014. 

Met him on the night of 14th Nov 2014, getting hitched to this very man on the 14th of November 2021. 

You know what they say..

You know what they say...

It takes about 2-3 years to fully understand someone. 

So what are the odds of truely knowing someone way before the 2-3 years mark? 

You know what they say...

It is essential for a couple to quarrel once in a while, just so to really understand your partner. 

So if you barely quarrel with your partner, does it mean that you have something to be worried about?

You know what they say...

You'll always have to put in effort into maintaining a relationship. Make things interesting once in a while or else the spark dies off eventually. 

These "you know what they say" worries me from time to time. Thus I took a step back and think as there will always be two sides to the story. What if some true soulmates out there takes less than 2 years to fully know their partner? What if the couple doesn't quarrel much due to tramatizing, full of quarreling past relationships that they've had? 

There are ought to have many 'if', 'how', and 'why' questions revolving around theories of the universe. Yet, some of us still don't get most of the answers that we are looking for. So stop for a second and think. Is this worth worrying over? If your answer is no, move on because the carousel never stops turning. 

A conversation with bae sparked my train of thoughts and thus this blogpost. 

If I lay here, if I just lay here. Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Life

It has been long since I've last blogged. I know that. I've been busy with school (okay not really), hanging out with my best buds and of course with my very own boy.  Due to my previous relationship, I've lost contact with more than half of my friends. Now that I'm back on track, I'll be busier than ever catching up with every single one of them. I'm really blessed to have my freedom and most importantly, my life back. You know what they say?
"Life is short, live life to the fullest."

So to whomever out there who is stuck in an unhappy relationship or friendship, get out of it. Move on. You deserve someone better. We are humans, humans are social beings. Friends, kin, spouse, soul mates, are what keep us motivated and blessed to live by the days.

I can't even remember the last time I've blogged to be honest. But this time round I'm back to rant again. Good rants of course. I've been together with this boy for a year plus and my time spent with him passes by in a blink of an eye. Smiles  and laughter strongly overpower our frowns and tears in a ratio of 1000:1. That's how happy I am. That's how happy we are. I'm glad that he's the one. I'm contented with just him being in my life. No regrets.

No doubt, nobody knows what the future hold. It will slowly unfold itself eventually. Nonetheless, it's the every moment spent together that counts. I would say that I'm fortunate enough to to meet Aomy. He never fail me make me laugh every single day. I'm not even kidding. That's crazy you might think. How is that even possible? Let's just say that I laugh at the slightest things  and he simply knows how to make me happy.

I misses him everyday and I can't wait to see him tomorrow already. Eventhough we just met for dinner just now. #dramatic
I love you Aomy.


Ps: exams are around the corner. School sucks. I need sleep. I need alcohol. I just finished my CNY shopping. I need more money. Basically sums up my life.

Mine

I'm surprised at how I still can fall in love with you every single day.

I guess this is what they call love. After all that I've been through during my previous relationship, I'm still able to fall in love over again. You broke through my wall and let my guard down. I could actually count my blessings, willing to put down everything and give you my all. They say that you wouldn't be angry with the person that you love for long, I totally agree. Yes, it's true that no matter what, at the end of the day, every couple would quarrel/argue/fight over something. Even for the stupidest things. Let's just say that I did get angry with you before, but it's surprisingly easy to put down my ego and think about you. Looks like I really cannot get angry with you for long. It was all a misunderstanding. You actually went to get me the loveliest gift for Valentine and I'm sorry that I got angry over nothing afterall. I was indeed very surprised! 

You mentioned that I could read you like an open book, but baby, you could too. You know me so well. I often ask myself, "How do you actually know if he's the one?" After knowing you, I realized the answer to my question. It's just a feeling you get when you are with this person. This tingling sensation in your heart, allowing your brain to process, making sure you know that he is the one. Everyday, I could look at you and smile. You never fail to make me laugh, giggle and enjoy my every moment whenever I'm with you.  Making me yearn for more. Not in the greedy, I expected more way, but the I'll never get enough of you. ❤️

All your little imperfections makes up the perfect you. The perfect you that I fall in love with. The you that I could never get enough of. Thank you for being you, you are more than perfect to me. I'll never stop saying this but I'm so fortunate to have you in my life. You'll do whatever it takes to provide me with the best and so am I baby. When in time to come, I can't promise you to solve all the problems that you are going to face in life, but I promise you, you'll never face them alone. I love you trucklots Adrian. 

We fall in love by chance, but we stay in love by choice. 

Lucky Bitch

You make me feel as though I'm one lucky bitch

Time flies whenever I'm with you, I would never wanna let you go. On the 14th of December 2014 you asked me to be your girl, and that's one thing I never regret agreeing upon. You make me feel as though no one else can make me this happy. You are just like my twin. Everything we do felt as though we are one and all in this together. 

True enough, my previous relationships failed. I thought I was that terrible girl that is isn't capable of loving. All I did was to hurt people and later did I know that I was wrong. You gave me the reason to start loving, to not wanna do shits to hurt you for nuts. Yes, I'm someone that chooses fun over anything else. It's not as though I don't know how to prioritize issues, it's just me unable to find a reason to settle down for someone. I would often ask myself, "What if my boyfriend is fun to be with? What if he is just like me and we can agree upon the same ideology?" You are this very person and you gave me the reason to not just only look at the fun side of every situation. I'm indeed very fortunate to have you. 

I definitely do look forward to what lies upon us. I believe we would be able to go though shits together. A partner would and should always support one another. Not for the wrong doings though! I am willing to support you. You have my back, baby. 

I know we may have met in a place where no one would ever thought of finding love, but I did. I have never regretted going to Attica on that very day. It's was on the 15th I remember. Talking to you for hours in my drunken state, although I may have forgotten some stuff that you said! It was pretty epic and memorable. 

Every love story is beautiful, but ours is my  favourite. I love you so very much babe. 

It's you

Some people live in a house on a hill, and they wish they were some place else. I know I'm home when I'm in your loving arms, and I wish I wasn't anywhere else. I don't care about the odds, I'll take on the world if I must. I won't let nobody harm you. You never fail to amaze me. Everyday there will be something new that makes me love you more than the day before. 

You make me smile everyday.

Truthfully, I can talk about you all day all night and I'll never run out of things to talk about you. There would be a billion things more for me to say but too many words became meaningless. Therefore I'll leave it at you are the most wonderful person I've ever met and I couldn't imagine life without you. I simply hate how time passes super fast whenever I'm around with you, but I love the fact that I'm in love with you and that's for sure.

It's you being you, so thank you for coming into my life, holding my hand and step into 2015 together with me. Whatever the future hold, promise me that you'll still be holding my hand, going through it with me. Never let it go. I love you babe. 

New bitch

Take me to a place where I belong, keep me there and hold me tight
I have never felt this right. You have never fail to treat me like your princess, making me feel like the luckiest girl alive. 

Whatever the future may hold, I will stick with you and be by your side. I fell in love with you. Simple. Your laughter, your smile, the way you place kisses all over me, your hugs, your unconditional love, the way you get angry over Manchester United, how your nose instantly turn into a tap whenever you take spicy food and many other shits. I fell in love with you, simply because you are you. (And also because you join on my weirdness) 

It's crazy how you suddenly became so important to me. It's like watching snow falling and you didn't realize that they are actually pileing up. Then suddenly you see your whole lawn covered in snow. You are like my snow storm, baby. 

Whenever people ask, "Who are you to him?" I would proudly reply, "I'm his new bitch."